sorrow
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: voltaire: feathery wings
I'm in the mood to listen to Tori Amos, her shoot, can't remember the name of the album, but her third one, with ... Boys For Pele, that's it! Anyways, yeah, I'm in the mood to listen to that. Melancholy.

I was mean to Rick again. I feel so horrible about it, cause it's not like he tries to be clumsy, but then when he is I get all irritated. I should be happy that the glass spilt on the table instead of the carpet, but no, I'm a jerk and got mad it spilled at all. And now I feel bad about the whole thing. I really have a problem with my temper. I need to get rid of it. *sigh* He's not even home. He's probably mad at me and I just want to apologize.

I'm also in the mood to listen to Le Tigre. I downloaded FYR. I wonder if I still have their album. I should go check.

Anyway, I'm trying to fight the urge to go register a new domain. I'm going to try to be satisfied with a tripod page again, since I don't actually have the time to be updating a webpage much these days. Buying a domain would just be a waste of money...or so I try and tell myself.

Anyways, it's late, I need sleep. Check out these lyrics.
"Feathery Wings" by Voltaire.

You, there on the bridge
where have you been, whats your name?
and you, there you on the wall
where will you go to once you fall?
you, lost at sea
do you need me, do you need directions?
hey, put down the gun
what are you thinking?
you were someone's son

the taste of tears
the sting of pain
the smell of fear
the sounds of crying

a long, long time ago i fell to this place
from another dimesnion
and thrust amongst the beasts
and they way they behave borders on dementia
now through all these years
i can barely take it
i don't think i can make it
take me away from here
I want to go home

i'm so sick and tired of the
the taste of tears
the sting of pain
the smell of fear
the sounds of crying
as you standing at the edge of your life
what do you remember?
was it all you wanted?

I'm trying to earn a set of feathery wings
i wish i could protect you here
oh, please don't cry
now smile as you're standing
at the edge of your life
your troubles are over
mine are just beginning
I'm trying to earn a set of feathery wings
to take me away from here
its me you leave behind

if only i could have been there
i'd be a hand for the sinking
if only i could have been there
i'd be a prayer for the dying
see the pain etched in my face

i'm so sick and tired of
the taste of tears
the sting of pain
the smell of fear
the sounds of crying
as you're standing at the edge of your life
what do you remember was it all you wanted

I'm trying to earn a set of feathery wings
i wish i could protect you here
oh, please don't cry
now smile as you're standing
at the edge of your life
your troubles are over
mine are just beginning

I'm trying to earn a set of feathery wings
to take me away from here
its me you leave
you're gone from here
don't leave from here
don't leave me here
I hate it here
you're gone from here
don't leave me here
I need you here
I need to see you smile